It's hard when I hear the number seventeen. It's hard for me to believe in dreams. How can you, so close to me, never explain how far away you were? It's a blur to me. My view has been corrupted. Cruising through life in an automobile, when all of the sudden the windshield cracks. I keep the foot on the pedal. I keep on going. I can see you through the spaces between the lines. I get to see the joy we shared. But nothing else is clear. Why did you have to go? Why couldn't you have said something, anything?
The answers are hidden. I will never know in this lifetime. That won't stop the curiosity. I will still be thinking of you. I even think I see you in the halls sometimes, or driving. Sometimes when I am in casual conversation, I start to tell a story about you thinking that I would be able to reminisce our memories once again. Then, I realize that I don't to get to see you again...
It hurts. I don't blame you though. I know you were hurting too. You were hurting more than most people can fathom. I just wish you would have told someone. I would have been there for you buddy. I've been there, and you could have just BEEN there today. You could be among all the ones who love you. You should have seen how many people shared their love for you, homie. I love you. I am glad that I have been blessed to know you. Keep an eye on all of us up there, TK. I love you.
Grant, bro, this is real touching. I know how you feel, not to make connections but this reminds me of how I feel about my brother. It's extremely inspiring and thoughtful. Great work, man.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Zach. It's always hard to lose a loved one.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a great friend to everyone, Im really sorry about everything and if you ever need to talk Im here for you
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I think he's looking at this. It's scary to think about it, but so many people talk of him, think of him, live because of him; he's getting all this somehow. Just know that Grant. You're such an old soul, kiddo. Love that about you. Keep it up : )
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. I lost my dad to suicide in January last year. Its extremely hard to go through and this reminds me of my dad. If you ever need someone to talk too, im here. <3
ReplyDeleteAyyy buddy. You, being my best friend, it beyond sucked to see you lose one of your best friends, TK. I know every day must be a struggle, but you're a strong kid Grant.
ReplyDeletelove you man.